Hidden in the Hollow of His Blessed Hand
pondering what happens to the minds of Christians with Alzheimer's, particularly my dad's.
Where is a lost mind to be found? Is there some cleft where the sum of a man’s thoughts are hid away safe and sound? Who knows where the mind of a man has flown? He is as a lone vessel hemmed by mist, no direction known. Psychologists hang their heads bemused. Philosophers must themselves recuse. The breadth of human wisdom knows not where, nor how to look, nor does it care. No currency to trade for such a thing, its finding cannot be bought with all the treasures that this world could bring. No gold, nor silver, crystal, coral, glass, gems of topaz, onyx, sapphire. No mighty deeds that last, nor all the ceaseless tide of things to which young men aspire could such knowledge acquire. I only know that as a mind departs, it says goodbye a bitter hard farewell, made sweet somehow by the intervening years, a well of fading memories, the longing of the heart now for a shred of whatever used to be. But the former glory cannot be compared with that to come, for man is going to his eternal home. “The dust returns to the earth as it was,” with all that a man knows and is and does. But where shall his lost thoughts be found? Is there some hollow where his mind is hidden, preserved safe and sound, hid even from death itself? There is One who knows its hiding place. To us, it’s as though a man’s mind sailed away one day on a slow voyage bound for far-flung shores, to which we do not know the way. But God knows where its harbor lies, nearer than we could guess; for He who collects all our tears in a bottle so that none are lost gathers all a man is in the hollow shell of His hand, clasped close to His chest. And when the heavens and earth are new again with all His children gathered together to Him, our God in whom all treasures of wisdom and knowledge are hidden shall open once more His chest of precious things, and remove and return that which was lost, so that a man made to bear such a cross may wonder again and whistle and speak and sing.
P.S., my dad was a pastor, sang in church choir, wondered at the manifold beauty of God and His creation, and was an avid whistler. Each of these things ebbed away in turn because of the disease. But each will one day come back to him, as the last line's contour suggests: first the glory of it all, then melody to undergird it, then words to speak of it, and finally a voice to crown it all in doxology once again and forever. As Isa 35:6 says, "the tongue of the mute [shall] sing for joy." P.P.S., if you detected the fragrance of Job 28 in this poem, that was deliberate.